Wednesday, March 12, 2008
After The Bath Tub
I can’t even put it into words, but what I can tell you is that I once tried to kill myself and God saved my life. I tried again, and He saved my soul. I laid there on the floor after having said my first prayer to God and I wept for days. I would eat through tears, I would cry myself to sleep, I could not stop my heart from breaking. Because it needed to be broken. It had been so long since I had felt anything at all, and in this moment I felt loved, I didn’t deserve it and I knew it, but it was real.
I'm a simple person to figure out. I usually write it all down here. I try not to pretend to be anything. I am what I am and that's good enough until it's not anymore. I want my kids to remember me smiling when I'm gone. Integrity is the very basis of a good life. I love my God, my wife, my kids, my friends, and I try to love all of the rest of you.